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Sakura Season

【雨の日はおうちの中でゆっくり♪】A rainy Sunday


It's amazing how only two weeks in a new, healthier workplace have been enough to change my mentality. I forgot my wallet in my locker at work yesterday, so I spent this rainy Sunday at home. Before, forgetting my wallet would have resulted in a ruined, stressful weekend. This time? "It's lucky I worked today and only need to spend one day without my wallet instead of a full weekend!" 

A few coworkers were warned about coming in to work too early -- an indication of how serious the higher-ups are about work-life balance. We had assumed it was a joke but were told during an opening meeting not to come more than 10-15 minutes early, and to leave within 20-30 minutes of the end of the shift.

As a result, mornings have been both relaxing and productive. I have time to peacefully enjoy my breakfast and still get most housework done, giving my more flexibility with my evenings.I've been sleeping better and feeling less anxiety. After work, I have time to grab a bite with co-workers, and don't really have chores to do on the weekend since I divide them throughout the mornings.

Ryu went to city hall for me yesterday while I was at work and got me switched over to my company health insurance. He was told that I actually get money back and that I'll receive a postcard when the payment was ready. This is great news because my previous company, unsurprisingly, dealt me another financial blow of around 5万円($460 ish?). I'm not irritated nor surprised. Really, I am just glad to finally be 100% legally disconnected from my previous company.

Little by little, I need to start re-incorporating an exercise routine in at least three times a week to start because if not, I know I'm going to get big fast. We've been going out after work quite a bit and someone is always bringing snacks. A co-worker of mine who lives about 10 minutes away told me to let her know if I'd like to start going to the area gym. Since she already has a membership, she can get me a reduced price through their introduce-a-friend program. I'll more than likely take her up on that offer, but I want to work on my self discipline before I do, otherwise I'll just be wasting money on a membership I won't use.

Weight gain isn't the only thing I've been worrying about lately. I've also been thinking a lot about a co-worker of mine. He's so socially awkward it's painful with a heavy victim-complex in which nothing is ever his fault and I suspect, based not only by his behavior, but also because of things he says, that he's got Aspergers. The heavy atmosphere and negativity he brings is not intentional, we believe. But that doesn't make it acceptable. I just don't know how to handle someone like this.  We're trying to have patience with him in hopes that he picks up social cues, but I can easily see this draining us.

A handful of us plan on grabbing drinks on Friday to celebrate a month at our new job. I'm worried about controlling myself and being able to be kind to that coworker when my walls are down.

My keyboard is acting up -- the I and N keys continuously get stuck no matter how much I clean them. If I can find a cheap keyboard, I'll replace it, but I'm also wondering if I should start considering just buying a new PC. The one I currently have is about a decade old, and was already an old model when I bought it. Maybe once we get our rings and pay off the car, I can start looking in to prices.

(A few of us at the station before heading home. Our OG group. 3 people missing.)

【春になった2】Entering Spring but already thinking about summer!

I've been working at my new job location for a week now and I absolutely love the energy everyone is bringing to the table. For the first time in years I enjoy going to work and staying late. The way our superiors speak to us is just so...human and you can feel their want for us to succeed. As I was working on a presentation, one of my superiors came in to see what I was up to and I confessed that I was nervous about the presentation I was working on. They pulled up a chair, sat down and helped me role play through my entire presentation, giving me tips along the way, then gave me time to do it again trying to implement the advice they had given me. After work I went to grab a bite to eat with a coworker, and we ended up going to a near-by bookstore together to buy a few work-related books to better our performance.

During my interview, I had been told that I'd need to wait three years for company-covered health and pension, but they've decided to give me health insurance from this year, meaning I only need to wait for pension. Since I work Saturday, I can't go to city hall myself but Ryu will go for me and get everything changed.

White day was on March 14th. Ryu got me some amazingly delicious chocolates from GODIVA, and then two jars of peanut butter. I've been having about a spoon a morning with either an apple or banana with a cup of coffee.


Some time ago I snagged a recipe for a salad from beauty_forashes that required peppers. Scraps were tossed in to an empty pot of soil on the veranda after I'd forgotten to toss them out on burnable trash day, and then were completely forgotten about. I remembered I'd tossed them in to the pot when I went out to grab laundry and noticed some sprouts sticking out. I'll try to keep them alive and see what grows. When I intentionally plant things nothing ever takes. Maybe I need to toss things randomly more often. I'd love to try growing something like mushrooms for winter, but those aren't things you can just toss in to a pot!

We're about to enter April, which means summer only 2.5 months away. Japanese summers are horrible on my hair because my hair is quite damaged, and I usually end up getting a keratin straightening treatment. Due to the pandemic, I haven't been going out much, so I decided to stop using heating products and it helped slightly, but my hair still requires heavy product usage, which means more washing. I've switched to a honey-based shampoo for damage repair and hydration and have been using the yuzu oils given to me by my coworker.

But I've really been looking in to Korean hair washing routines in order to try and tackle hair health at the scalp. I bought an exfoliation brush to use when shampooing my hair and have been looking at different scalp cleaners, but they are so pricey!  I'm currently considering this product...
Ice cream

【春になった】There's a lot going on


My training, which was originally supposed to be one month, ended up getting down to two weeks in Tokyo, then cut down again to eight days in Yokomana--a four hour round-trip commute. I leave home at 5:45 am and get home at around 22:00-23:00 to take a shower, eat something, get to bed, then do it all over again. That, in combination with the Japanese studies and the other work-related material I need to memorize, it's been physically and mentally exhausting. I haven't been sleeping or eating properly, so I've lost weight, but also lost my muscle definition. Only five more days to go...

The training is apparently the worst part of this company and that the trainers are notorious for being stuck up. It's great once you actually start working on your own. So I really just need to hang in there.Even though the training had been cut down to eight days, the content we needed to learn hadn't changed, and on day three, we were already being evaluated as though we'd been training for three weeks. We started on Wednesday. Friday evening I had an evaluation and was told I don't seem to have confidence. That would be because I don't. We had one day to watch trainers, then were cut lose and expected to perform as they do the following day.

On the bright side, I've gotten quite friendly with the other trainees, who will also be working at my location once this is over. We plan on celebrating at McDonalds once this is all over, as it's the only thing open in the area by the time we get off.

The long commute has also given me a bit more time to text with my parents in the morning. My father and I generally exchange dog videos and memes and make fun of our dog, while my mom and I go on and on about the return of Elliot to LAW&ORDER.

Ryu and I had previously agreed to postpone buying wedding bands until after we paid off the car, but ended up purchasing them yesterday. Because of the clientele we have, there is a strict dresscode, and part of that is no flashy jewlery, meaning I wouldn't be allowed to wear my engagement ring because of the diamond on it. Ryu didn't like the idea of my not having a band on my finger when I'd be working with and around a lot of men, so we purchased matching simple platinum bands with engraved spirals so that my ring could still look like it had diamonds without actually having any. The rings will be made just in time for our wedding anniversary, so we plan on making a day of it -- we'll pick up the rings, then go for a couple's full body massage and a hotpot meal.

We also need to get started on wedding photos because our mothers really want them. Next month I'll start researching general pricing a little more seriously, but it seems that the base cost of a simple photoshoot including a dress and make up is about 80,000円 ($740 ish) before taxes, and I'm not sure if that's a pair price or individual. Yikes!

While on the talk of money.... Some time ago I mentioned that my previous company was letting me break contract without any financial penalty. They didn't penalize me for breaking contract, but they did do financial damage.It seems that I'm missing about 400,000円 (Roughly $3,700) in Pension payments during a period my company should have been paying, as I was full time. They never did though, and now I have to make up the difference. The Pension office gave me a payment plan, but this slip-up could affect my Permanent Residency application.

Memo to self:
Wedding Photos: Save roughly 100,000円($930)
Car Loan: Save 700,000円 ($6,500)
Pension payback: 400,000円 ($3,700) 

【お世話になりました!】Quit my job, on to other things!

【I was finally able to find a LAWSONS that carried the Sailor Moon items I've been looking for!】
Yesterday was my last day of work. Despite knowing I need to lose three 3kg, I decided to celebrate by starting my morning off with 3 krispy creme donuts and alternating cups of tea and coffee. They were gloriously delicious, but I probably only think so because I haven't had Krispy Creme in four years.

As a present, I received flowers, some Yuzu hair oils and a few cases of tea. I'm happy for the oil, as I'd been wanting to toss out my current product, and tea is always greatly appreciated but bouquets always make me a bit sad, since the flowers eventually die.

The company ended up bringing in the man that had worked a few of my events in December, to replace me. After I finished handing everything over, he invited me out for a drink. Over drinks he told me that he actually works for a dispatch, and he wasn't being directly hired -- only contracted until they could find a permanent member. He also stated he wasn't interested in becoming a permanent staff, as he liked the freedom that came with being dispatch. We ended up exchanging information, as it turns out he actually lives only 30 minutes away on foot, just on the other side of the station. What an unexpected situation.

On that same note, I'm feeling a bit irritated, though I completely get my former company's perspective. Once clients had been told that I was leaving, I began receiving cards including personal phone numbers and emails asking me to contact them about meeting on a more personal level. I've worked with a lot of them for roughly 5 years, so we know each other quite a bit and have many similar hobbies. Many of them, I'd love to be friends with. I decided to double check with the company to make sure I wasn't crossing any lines, and apparently I'm not allowed to have contact with anyone I've worked with. Are we not all adults here or...? If I want to do anything with even a slight connection to the company, it needs to go through their HR department. I can't message X-san directly and invite them for coffee. I have to message HR who will message boss and get permission.

They've also asked that I avoid the company area during office hours and was told "Well, you don't live in Kawagoe anyway, so you have no reason to be coming to this city." Alright, but my not working there anymore is not going to keep me from going. I love a lot of the temples and the cheap sweets and it's unrealistic to expect me to give that up because they don't want me to run in to clients. What. Is. The. Fear?

I start my new job on Monday. It seems that I won't be doing a full month of training in Tokyo -- it's only about two weeks, and not every single day. I'll be relaxing today, catching up with youtube videos and watching 進撃の巨人 discussion videos as I do yoga. Recently, I've been having the urge to pick up Piano again, so I want to look in to some of that too.

あらま!! I am definitely an idiot.

Just in case it went missed (Since people seem to be freaking out now more than ever), you can reach my DW by clicking on the image to the left. Livejournal will still be my platform until it completely disappears from the net, but for those who decide to stop using LJ beforehand, the content on my DW will be exactly the same. I look forward to keeping touch with everyone here, there, or even on both.

So why am I an idiot? Because I accidentally made this entry private so that only I could see it, then paniced when no one had come forward to either add me or give me their DW account. I was sad that no one wanted to keep in touch. Why didn't anyone keep in touch??

Because you couldn't see this entry XD My bad. 

時間は作る物だ!Time is something you make!

Great New Years date. I will keep long stories short, but if Masahiro wants any more of my attention, he's definitely got it♡ (˘▽˘>ԅ( ˘⌣˘) . We were raised in similar environments, so we have a lot of the same interests and morals. And he's the first person in a while to fully grasp that while I am foreign, my brain doesn't function in English all the time, and that I wasn't raised in typical American culture. When he looks up words I don't know, he does it in Spanish and he doesn't ask about America, but Puerto Rico. He appeals to a side of me a lot of people (and even Kenshi was guilty of this) seem to forget about, or simply ignore.

no rushing. I still want to get to know Sakka-kun, and Yuuki better as well.
When it comes to love, I've always acted in the heat of the moment and just gone on gut feeling. I might try a different approach this time.

Tokyo Tower. Even thinking about it now, I laugh. We went to Tokyo Tower for the count down. Last year,they turned off the tower, and then at midnight turned it on, returning it to it's bright glory. 10 seconds to midnight. Everyone starts counting down. 10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1.....and....nothing! So everyone counts again. Confused murmers and whispers begin to travel around. Then, a police officer drives by in a car and in a voice I found much too cheerful says "We aren't turning it back on this year...! We aren't turning it on this year....!" And we could hear the joy in his voice. It was as though he also did the count down, eagerly awaiting to be able to give everyone the disappointing news. I asked Masahiro why the officer would wait until after midnight to say it, when he knew everyone had been standing around for an hour before, and we laughed it off because we decided we'd probably do the same thing. It became a running gag with us that continued through out the night and well in to the morning.

Updated my agenda for this month and fixed my budget. While I have a full 2017 yearly goal list, I've decided
five goals I will focus on this month: Write something everyday. On paper. Stop going grocery shopping until I've used everything I already have in my kitchen. I buy too much and it all goes bad before I can use it. Stretch more. I'm too stiff! Clean out my closet and restock it. I still wear too many things in L and M, while I am an S(Japanese) XS(American). Stop hanging out with new guys. It is much easier for me to make male friends. I need to start making friends with, and maintining friendships, with girls.

Good luck to us all!

Happy New Years!!

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